Merry Christmas :o

Just want to wish everyone a Merry Christmas. Hope your guys' break is all going well and stuff. I still don't know what to do for my family ¬_¬

There's an 85% chance I'm just going to make them a card or something. Bleh. Sucks not having money.




:O


:D


:X

Inspiration?

Inspiration?

You know what's the most inspiring?

People.

I think a significant amount of people's motivation comes from people.

Motivational people.

People that do

People that want.

--

Where have all the cowboys gone?

What's an amazing artist?

Was thinking.

What makes an artist..amazing?

Potential? Talent? Crazy Ideas?

Possibly.....

but I think something is possibly being overlooked.

I think an amazing artist is an artist that does stuff.

Someone who makes do with what they have and just..does it.

Constantly coming up with new things. Constantly working. Being creative.

Not necessarily following all the principles of a good design or having aesthetically pleasing colors (necessarily..) but being creative. Doing what they do.

I don't think my words are making a lot of sense..whatever.

上に見て。

It seems the world has changed within the past few years.

Yeah, with global warming and stuff.

Well yeah, that too, but that's not my point.

The world is different.

The world around us. The world that is us. The world that consists of us people. You know, living here.

The world has become a lonely place. I don't know you anymore.

The world has become a scary place. Don't look at me.

The world has become a fun place. Let's go to my place after.

Yes?

No?

This place has changed. A person can be in a humongous city with hundreds of people but still be alone.

The world I once had a taste of was very friendly. I knew you. You knew me. Hey, I know that guy. Not all that well but I still do.

Hey there, how's it going. Hi I'm fine, thanks. Have a great day.

What beautiful children you have. Oh, thank you. s m i l e

Oops, I'm so sorry, are you ok? Oh yeah, it's no problem really, thanks.

Hm.

Why don't I see such kind words any more?

Where have all the cowboys gone? Doo doo.

What an after-taste this world has become.

So what part do I have in all of this?

Good question.

Let's become that taste I used to have.

Such a nice wholesome taste.

Let's be that hello, how are you. Let's be that smile.

Let's be that helpful hand there to pick you up.

That sounds good.

I think some people are in desperate need of those hands, those smiles, those kind words.

Some people don't have those hands. Some people think they're alone. Some people don't know they exist.

We do. I do. I guess I should let them know, huh?

I suppose so.

Let's do it.

Let's lift them up.

Starting



now.

oops.

I can only hope that we aren't talking to walls.

Walls with faces.

Walls that fill our seats and insecurties.

Walls that carry us to the next empty pathway.

..





I lost my train of expression.





(No, I'm serious)

何だ？！

Maybe I'm just crazy or something

But does your hand..or finger..or something ever get like suuuuper tingly? Like..super tingly. Like so much you can almost say it hurts. It's not like itchy....you didn't hit it or anything..it's like a nerve is acting up or something.

It's weird though cus I used to get it all the time when I thought about certain things..pretty specific kinds of things (heh, I guess that's what the word 'certain' means..)

Yeah but..I dunno. Right now my middle finger on my left hand is freaking out.

o_O ?

大人になる時間

Work? Oh that's a job for one of those adults.

Responsibility? Oh, yeah. Adults have those kind of things.

Do what? That's not for me to do. Someone older will do it cus they know better than me.

Be WHO? Um, I think you've mistaken me for one of those older guys. Sorry.





...


I think I'm going to have to become one of those guys pretty soon..


Crap.

hitori de?

by myself.

am I alone. is anyone there?

are you here?

yes.?

yes?.

well of course. but maybe.

i need someone.?

but. are you already here?

mou koko de kimasuka?

mou koko de imasuka?


Sometimes...most times actually, I find myself trying to find something..somebody to attach myself to. I need to find a place for myself. A heart holder. I'm eager to find a place for my heart. Is it here. Is it there. Is there it? But. Maybe I need to look somewhere else? I don't think I should have such an empty feeling spot in myself, even if what I'm looking for doesn't seem to be here. So then. Yeah, maybe I need to be looking in another direction. But..for some reason...something is keeping me from looking there. Am I scared? Am I uncertain? Faith? Is that the word I'm looking for?

I need to stop silently throwing myself at people. Throwing pieces of my heart into things I don't know anything about. Investing in false hopes. Where is my heart? Where am I? Where do I belong? What am I doing?

Where am I?

102408 5:08

So..I'm eating beef jerky..

And my tooth..

It kind of hurts...

kind of..


But then..it kind of feels good.......

...

o_O..

It's time for this flower to blossom.

この花が咲く時間だ。

じかんだ。。


見てよ。

But how do you not?

How do you not get caught up with the flow of what's natural?

How do you fight against the current of this raging river?


Quit pressing so firmly against my heart. Covering my eyes. Blinding my soul.


Let me break away from this. This isn't the way home. Lead me home. Show me the way home.



Teach me to break through the current of this raging river.

Wedding Day Commitment

So. A man meets a women. They spend time together. They fall in love.

On their wedding day, they're both so excited. The time comes to exchange their vows.

The preacher-man-guy turns to the women and asks all of the stuff, and after, the women says, "I do."

Then the preacher-man-guy turns to the man and asks all of the stuff. He looks at his soon-to-be wife and says, "Yes, I do."


"But let's not be too serious about this marriage thing."







"What?" Is probably what you're thinking. Not be too serious? What, is that guy dumb? That's what marriage is. Serious. A commitment.

We surely wouldn't be that way towards our wife/husband.

Though, sometimes I think it's pretty easy for us to say that to God through our lives.

"I love you and all but I don't wanna take this too seriously."

Hmmm..

:O

I tripped the heck out when I saw this website: http://www.webleeddesign.com/

That HAS to go on my top 3 most creative things ever done on a website.

That is so like. omg.

Maybe for you non-designers/web-people it's just like "oh, yeah that's cool" I dunno. But for me it's so crazy :O <


*edit

top THREE?! how about top ONE! :O :O :O :O

この目 • k o n o m e

Why..?

Why does my heart search so eagerly?

Why does my self seek such a thing so fervously?

How is it that my eyes can look from place to place so quickly just to lead me even deeper into darkness and pain?



Take control of yourself.

Let Him take control.

Cus that's definitely not it.

We both know it.

So let's stop this now..

Be patient.

Patient..


Close those eyes now..

Let's let these eyes close now..

顔 • k a o

Hmm.

I've been thinking about my appearance alot lately...well, not like that's new or anything..

I noticed that I seriously look at myself everytime I walk past something with a reflection haha. I worry a lot about looking strange or dumb..or just how I don't want to look. I'm really self concious when I feel my hair's messed up (even though hardly anyone can tell or cares..), or when my pants are too baggy and the lay on my leg really weird or if there's a pimple or something strange on my face..etc. Besides that though, there's always a way I like to look..like I want to look like myself. like..'myself' whoever that may be. And whenever I don't look like 'myself', I feel really odd and I feel like everyone feels that odd feeling as well.

But I wonder..if it's not taking over my life..and if I'm not heavily effected by it, is it wrong to.."dress up"? I mean, lots of the clothes I wear...actually..ok. The reason why I wear certain clothes is because it's confortable, convenient, and I like how it makes me look. I don't care about what's "in" or what everyone thinks is cool, in fact, I try to stay away from stuff like that. I tend to not like what "everyone" is wearing. Nike..EVERYONE seems to be wearing DC now..vans...though some of those things may be nice, I just feel like me wearing it is telling everyone "I want to fit in"..but I just want to be me.

But what is 'me'? Think about this..who do we dress for? The purpose of clothes is to stay comfortable in certain types of weather..Though otherwise, we may just like things like..jackets have pockets in the front..that's like, the best hah. And w.e else stuff like that. But who do we dress for? If you weren't going to see a single person for a week..how would you dress?

You could go out naked for all anyone cared and it wouldn't make one difference. If no one saw us, what would we wear?

Who are we dressing for?

Hm..

Is it like a first impression thing? like.."well these people don't 'know' me so I'll give them a taste with how I dress" ..that seems like a valid reason..makes sense. It reminds me of putting up a face. Not necessarily in a bad way. I think almost everyone in this world puts up a face. When you see someone you're not particularly excited to see..of course it goes, "ooh hi! how are you doing? :D" with a big smile and squinty eyes to make them feel missed and whatnot. I do that too..But thinking about it..if I was TOTALLY m y s e l f . like, I didn't care about what that person thought about me or felt and I just wanted to be who I felt like being..I probably wouldn't even say anything to that person. And if I did I would just be like "hey what's up." in a neutral voice.

Hm..really makes me wonder.

I dunno what's wrong or right about any of this, I'm just writing. I dunno.

WRAH. hello.

Chocolate.

I get sooooo freaking inspired late at night.

It's not even funny.

But now I must sleep.

Mata, ne...チョコレート.

But you'll be back.

when I can take it.

End of the line.

I'm stuck.


Stuck?

Yeah...stuck..

Do you know where you are?

End of the line...

connection's been cut short..

Such a long journey too..

Yeah..

So..I'm stuck..

Nowhere to go..

I'm looking out at this huge place. I see nothing.

Where to go?

It's the most important one.....but it's gone.

I need another to step along to. I need another. But no, not you.

Of course not you. I'm not going to take another false step. I'm going to wait until my remaining line comes around.

But for now..

I'm stuck.

..

max out.

Just got back from watching America's Best Dance Crew Episode...6 I think.

Freak..it's really awesome seeing those guys do what they do out there. I love watching that show not just because of how cool the dancing looks or how pretty some of the girls are (...) but it's just really awesome seeing these crews give their hardest from week to week, improving going through hard times and despite everything giving it all they've got. It really inspires me when I see someone go aaalll out. Maxing out to their utmost potential. It inspires me soo much. Especially when it comes to art. And anyone who says dancing isn't aren't I promise you you're mistaken. Art to me is an expression of one's self, art is a person's personality shown through barious types of things. And if anything, dancing is one of the most direct (raw?) forms of expression. It's just being yourself.

(Anyway) It's just really cool seeing them up there..And the heart and the..the way they go about it being a competition...last night I was up super late (haha) watching like behind the scenes videos and stuff like that and you could see that all of the crews were like suuuuper cool with each other. You had some people from one team doing some other guys HAIR. Other people talking, hanging out. I was really surprised. Cus most of the time in situations like that you'd think it's like a..a COMPETITION right? So it's like "wrah, we're gonna beat you guys" but theyre totally cool with eachother. So ontop of them giving it their all, I don't even think theyre competing against the other crews, but theyre competing with their own selves, making sure they do their best.

I was really sad to see Supreme Soul lose. Not that I think another team deserved it or anything like that but, seeing someone try sooo hard and really give it their best to be met with the label of 'Failing' supposedly..it's so sad.

But anyone who runs into a situation like that should know that they did give it their all and they definately did not fail. Only person you should need to prove yourself to is yourself. Not America..not the judges, if you need to prove yourself to your friends, I don't know what kind of friends you've got. You're parents..do your best and they'll come around some day.

Wrah.

So inspiring.

LOVEIT.


Now I don't know who to vote for...fanny pak...soreal....D:

始まります・ h a j i m a r i m a s u

So, I've been thinking lately..

Thinking is good, sometimes.

And as I'm thinking, I'm starting to realize how lazy I am..

I am a really lazy person.

Especially considering how determined and motivated I had been when I was younger..I really got into a lot of stuff. I would come home everyday after school (yeah, that doesn't happen anymore..) and sit at my computer animating or working on a website untill I went to sleep. I was always learning new stuff, getting into a variety of things. Now..I guess I've gotten so used to not being able to do those things (being busy with stuff) it's hard to me to stop and just consentrate on something..Hard to get enough motivation to stick with one thing. And there's so much stuff I can do too.

So now, even though it's summer, I wake up and I'm sitting here at my desk for seriously the whole day..but I never really get much done.

So I've decided. きめたんだ！I've decided to stop being a lazy fool and do what needs to be done. I've got a lot of potential to do a lot of things and a lot of expectations but I'm not gonna get anywhere going the speed I am. And I've got a lot of catching up to do as well..

So that's that.
こちらは「ジャストデぃュイット」のはじめ。

Lost.

Disheartening.

That's the word that comes to mind.

Thats the feelings laying accross my chest.

When the one thing you've put your everything into. Your biggest hopes. Your complete trust. You're everything.

When the one and only thing you've given your life to walks away from you.when the one and only thing tells you, 'sorry, you've got the wrong person.' ..when the one and only thing drops you half way and continues on its way..

Disheartening.

That's the pressure laying across my chest.

In a search for truth..answers come from every direction. Answers wrong. Answers right. Answers left, even.

It's hard to see through those left answers. Through those wrong answers. When they make so much sense. How could it not be? But hold on. It makes absolutely no sense. That's not right..

So much confusion about something I thought I knew so well. Something I'd die for. Something I'd live for. Where have you gone? Or is it..where have I gone?

Where am I?

Laying in a desert. Laying in a field with flowers. Turned to dust. Laying in a forest, shielded by the tall trees that stretch to the sky. Turned to nothing.

Where am I?

Where are you..?

Save me.






Cus right now..


I'm just

A fork in the sea.

Oh so far, have I come, from that place I knew as trouble.

Never could have seen what lied ahead from that point in time.

I've come a long way just to find another stretch.

A shortage of wind has left me drifting ... drifting.

With storms of intensity and struggles from every direction.

I've done what I can do. I've traveled through the course.

To find myself at this point.

It's me against the world. What is the world.

It's me in my boat. What a boat. Raft.

Direction.

Something I could use.

There's two ways. Two paths. Two ends.






..really?

A fork in the sea?

Is that what I'm looking at..?


...how so?



D:

what?

..that doesn't even make sense..

ok.


How about I do this with You.

Cus I don't have a clue as to what's going on. Not like I ever did but right now this..isn't even something I can understand.


So I'll just cling on. Lead me to where I find You. Where I find myself. Where I find love.


Take me to where I will reconnect. Re-establish. Rebuild.

Lead me to a resolution.

WINDPICKUP!

I want to

ART.

CRY.

LOVE.



Clean this mess up.

Clean myself up.

Clear this mind.

Clear this battle field.

LIVE.


I want to.

me wo akete, ima wa toki da, toki ga kita

Yeah well..

I guess it is important for me not to look at us from the standards of another,

But from the eyes of it's owner. Though it gives me a strange feeling..

I guess I have to not be selfish and absolutely have to get my problem fixed but instead, make it so that there is no problem and make a goal to reach. Not the goal of another's success, but my own.

Help me see. Help me walk through these blinding covers.








open my eyes.




but its really hard you know.

..

新生活 • s h i n s e i k a t s u

I'm gonna cry when my first child is born...

I know it.

Life..as confusing as it is is something really amazing..

And to think that this new life is something you were greatly apart of.

Your offspring...

This is me. this is 'us.' Together.

...

I'm going to cry.

LOVE w o r k .

So.

For the past few weeks (to a month ish,) I've been browsin around, wasting time like I'm so good at doing..

And I'm seeing so many inspiring things. A group of artists working together to put up shows, using what God gave them to spread love in the cracks and corners overlooked in this world. Sooo many organizations contributing greatly to communities getting people involved in a simple way. Designers working humbly to give God glory..

I get so inspired seeing these things. I get so many ambitions and ideas..I want to use what I have for a good purpose. I want to use my art to show God's love around the world.

I want to describe the feeling I have in me right now but all I can express is "omg." It's such an intense feeling. I want to do something NOW.

I just pray that God lets this passion in me grow and be used in an awsome way.

period 4 scribble [2]

It's weird how much certain things can influence feelings..

Feelings..the things that are supposedely what we're to be following are giving into peer pressure.

Thoughts, truth, wisdon, discerment, desires, feelings.

Can it all be fit into one idea?


できるかな。。。

period 4 scribble [1]

The Rain.
Where am I?
I'm not with you.
What should I think? How should I feel?
I know not much about the situation..
But let that have no importance.
The knowledge may not be for me at the moment
What I do know is where I want to be..

lead me to what You bring..

let me be with you.

lead me to the rain.

問題 • m o n d a i

100 percent divided by two.


You get two 100 percents.



..

Yeah...that doesn't work.

感情 • k a n j y o u [short ver.]

Slip. Into the ocean.

A deep splash. Looking up at hope. It's just out of my reach. Come here, you. Swim towards the light. What an attempt...what a way to break an attempt. Thrown deeper into the darkness by something unseen and unexpeected. A struggle. Tossing and turning trying to distinguish top from bottom. Swim with all you've got. Which direction? Just swim. Gotta get out. Another blow. Pounded from all directions. Getting thrown further and further away from hope. Come back...

No breath, no life. Where am I? This water is as intense as ever. There's a storm above. Effecting the ocean below, sending me everywhere but where I need to be. I need help. Flipping in every direction, gasping for air, intense pressure on my body, on my lungs, on my mind. Still being blasted over and over again.

It calms down. I'm stationary. Hope is lost..I can't see it anymore. But this..what..light? Light! This light...feels so warm..stay. No. Darkness takes its place once again.

One solid crack and I'm up against the ground. I can't move. Can't feel my legs..cant feel my arms..can't feel my heart....I wish I couldn't feel pain. Demo, mada aru. I lay on the ocean floor. Numb and fatigued as I've ever been. Get me out already....no. I give up. All I can do is lay here. I can't see the light anymore. I can't feel what I wish for anymore. Hope left.




I sit.



I die.






I open my eyes. What? The floor is gone. I still can't feel....wait. I'm floating? I'm rising up. The intense blows have weakend. Maybe I'm just still numb. ...Either way I'm floating. To the top..

I'm coming. Waves, calm yourselves. I'm making my way up. Slowly..but surely. I'll be on top.

感情 • k a n j y o u

The ocean.

Looks interesting enough.

Nice blue waves..fish..etc.

Take a look.

One false step. Gasp. A plunge into the deep water.

Where am I?

I look up, see the surface of the water. Just a little accident. I'll be up in no time.

Wait, this is kind of hard. What's going on?

I look up, the surface is a bit further than the last time, it seems, I'm falling in deeper.

Something to be worried about. My body feels fatigued. I'm about 20 feet under. It's getting darker.

K, calm down, things are fine. Let me just make my way up to the top. K, I'm going up. Surface is getting closer. I can see the sun shining from the other side.

Almost there.

Take a look to my left. whatsthat?itscomingfastSWEEP

I got knocked away. I'm spinning around, which way do I swim? I'm running out of breath.

I feel heavier. I'm far down.

d a m e.

k, stop spinning, stop spinning. K. what just happened? I can barely see the top anymore..

..the light is dim. my breath. no, just go. I push my hardest to get back to the top. FWOOSH.

I just got knocked around again. Are you kidding me? Shoot.

Ah! Again. What is this? NO. Swim back to the top. I don't know which way the top is. Just swim. Swim.

ERGH! I'm getting beat up down here. What happened?

I just tripped and fell into the water and now I'm getting attacked by who the heck knows what.

I still see the surface. I can see the light blue color near the top.

PACK!





Well there goes everything. I've been knocked down too far......somehow I can tell on the surface theres a storm. Strong winds, my boat on top is being knocked around just about as much as I am.

But I'm near the bottom of the ocean now. Maybe. I guess. Breath....what breath? Right now, there's no such thing. It's as dark as dark has ever been.

Swimming in any direction seems pointless now. Hah! Swimming. Who can even think of such a thing right now. I can't swim. I'm stuck. Floating to the bottom of the ocean, if I'm not there already.







sinking.






....what.



no. freak you have to be kidding.


Ah jeez. Hit again. Blow after blow coming from every direction. What is this? I'm screwed already. Help me.




Hope. Dangles on a string? no......Hope. Right now that's something that I want to hold on to but wth. Where's hope when you're being pounded by these intense freaking...well, when your being pounded intensely.


Struggling for air, struggling for life. I can't see you. miemasen desu yo.

I can't see crap. But HOPE. FREAK! HOPE! Where did you go.

...


Ok. Well I'm still down here. How am I even alive?

The blows..have stopped..for now? Freak, how could there even be more. So I'm just here..wherever here is, hoping I somehow get pulled out.

Oh my gosh....no wait..what is that? Is that light? I see light. Ohh my gosh that light. It feels so...ah jeez. That's the most comforting thing I've felt in a long time.

Wait no........don't..go.

..it's dark.

kurai da.

Maybe I'm supposed to have seen something? I must have seen it by now.....now please get me out?

ACK

Ah! What is this? This. oh man. I don't even know what's going on. I've been smacked so hard and now I know I'm at the bottom of the ocean....I've just been slammed into it.

But freak. I'm just numb right now. I didn't know I could go this far and live. I'm alive. ....why?...how? I should be sitting in my boat, awaiting the arrival to the other side. But I'm sitting at the bottom of the ocean...rather, laying..I can't move.

..

I've become numb.

So I'll just sit here. I'll just sit. Forever? Freak, I don't know. I'm so numb to everything right now. Can't feel pain..can't be happy? what? I'm in so much pain my body is getting used to it..I don't think this can possibly get worse.


stuck.





I die.






















open my eyes.


I'm floating.


Don't feel the ocean floor.

Gasp. another one, coming straight for me. I brace myself.


..I'm ok. I didn't get knocked like before...it hurt a bit but......hey wait. I'm floating. Upwards.



I'm....moving up..



The storm above is calming. My boat is becoming a bit more steady..so is the sea.

I can barely feel anything. Numb again..? Maybe better though.

I still can barely move. But these blows don't kill me like they used to.













The hits are less. I see life again.










I don't know how...but I'm moving up. I'm slowly making my way up.

Ocean, calm yourself. I'm coming. Slowly but surely.

I'll be on top soon.


Just wait.




I'll be on top.

芸術 • g e i j u t s u

What is art?

I see art everywhere.

Is it a pencil sketch on a piece of paper?

Coated brisles brushing up against a canvas?

An array of paint being sprayed on a wall?

or maybe

the plucking and strumming of multiple strings making what we call music.

sticks tapping surfaces to a beat making different sounds and tones.

or simply a voice projecting itself strongly into the ears of an audience.

I see art everywhere.

Is it the way one's foot slams a piece of wood into the ground and then gracefully flicks the other across the surface making a formation of some sort in mid air?

or is it nature..

is it life flowing through a leaf, through a vine, through an organism.

is it the growth of a seed, forming into a beautiful creature standing tall, reaching in every direction.

is it the sun revealing itself through clouds, across the sky, shining so brightly.

What is art?

The way a person's mind grasps and understands the world around it, receiving information, collecting data and forming all into one idea.

the way an open wound heals itself, knowing exactly what needs to be done, making the body perform as it should.

What is art?

I see Art everywhere.

Kayoubi no Asa

N-102.

before school.

I sit, browsing random websites on the computer, wishing the first bell wouldn't ring causing me to go to my first period.

Sitting.

thinking about the rest of the day. So many things.

crossing through my head.

Worries, concerns, possibilities, probabilities, hope, doubt, fantasy, confusion, revelation.

Hmm.

hmm...

You know what gives a really odd feeling to think about?

Me, right now, typing this blog. That's going to be gone in a day.

what?

I mean.

You, reading this right now is going to be nothing but a memory in a few years, if even that. Me, sitting in this room waiting for school to start with tamura trying to figure stuff out on his computer and joel searching through his bag. This whole moment. What is it going to be when I'm 25, sitting in an office and working on a project?

Hmm.

Who knows.

Omoi

The third time he said to him, "Simon son of John, do you love me?"
Peter was hurt because Jesus asked him the third time, "Do you love me?" He said, "Lord, you know all things; you know that I love you."

Do I really love you?

That's what I ask myself..

I want to be able to say in confidence, "You know I love you." Not because everyone around me is saying it. Not because it's part of the lyrics of a song I like. But because I truely, honestly do.

I want to love. I want to love with all of my whole being. But..not only what does that look like..but am I even ready to surrender myself to that? Sometimes I feel really..bad..cus it seems that I'm not even willing to give my whole heart to God. I feel like I'll only give as much as what's comfortable. And I'll even go beyond that. But it's really difficult to give ALL. I want to...that's for sure..cus I know what God has for me is soo much greater than what I or the world can give myself. I want to give my whole heart to God. Something that's so..so great and wonderful. I just want to want to with all my heart as well...

But..what's great is that God doesn't want to keep that heart from me. The heart that is willing to give everything. God has it for me and all I need to do is ask right?

I know God's hand is reaching out, I just need to meet him halfway.

Hmm..

Let my heart love.

1.31.08

period one.

eight forteen.

I sit..

Half waiting for class to start.
Half waiting for class to end.

Soco amaretto Lime's playing again.


I sit.

Freek. I'm tired.

alg 2

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thursday. No period two

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period three

Yet again. period 3
.

sit. draw. sit. draw..sit...

listening to music doesn't help block out those freshmen girls that don't seem to ever stop talking.

but I try anyway...day after day...

Well here I am..sitting..

20 more minutes..

nine forty three...

drawing and painting.

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recess

wow. I'm pretty hungry.

gotta walk all the way to the cafe.

dodging kids left and right, even below.

freek, can't you people see?

chicken D:

well..chicken...but no. this is nasty chicken.


A friend's worries..my own worries.

so much to think about.

...and it's only ten twenty.

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period four

Oh, yes! Mrs. Nunotani!

One of the funnest subs 3V4R!!!

YES! Frankenstein!

We even get to watch a movie! HOLY GEEZE!

......this kind of sucks.

so I sit some more. (I should get paid for sitting. 10 bucks an hour please.)

listening to people whisper.

wonder about things..

worry about things..

I draw to keep myself ammused.

Go lead, go!

ten thirty seven.




...or maybe I'll just sleep.

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period five

one o' seven

actually 6th period.

wasureta.

sat some more. learned? eh...maybe not.

um..planned with my partner..

sorry chris S: had to go with someone else.

um..yeah.

japanese.

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period six

one fifty one.

last period of the day.

once again, more sitting. (how much is that already?)

chillin with behic in the back.

'expressing' myself on a blank notecard.

shoot..I want 'after school' to last forever.

Well, depending on what that's gonna be..

what I hope for?

hmm..I guess I'll see..

six minutes left.

day's over.

1.31.08






(after school? yeah. wasn't what I hoped for.)

シャボン玉と雨 Soapbubbles and Rain. Sit.

Hm..

Today was interesting.

Monday..short school day as always.

My body is really sore right now. Me and David went to 24 [hr fitness] saturday night at like 12:30..so technically Sunday morning. Whatever.

We had a prayer meeting after school. Well...."after school" We came back to school from Walmart around 2:30 to find Angela, Elizabeth, Amy, and Kathleen sitting under the tree inbetween O and N building. Guess we're having the meeting outside. I was heecck of tired so I sat..and layed down, half asleep...

Mostly because of my un-awake self..for the rest of the day I was in a really interesting mood. A mood you could almost describe as emo..except not. It was like...an indie mood...calm...chill...ish kind of mood. I was still, of course really tired.

So..I sat. Soco Amaretto Lime kept playing in my head, so I played it loud on my ipod, with my earphones hanging from my shirt. I sat and watched alot of nothing happening. Sat..while Angela talked to Amy and Kathleen continued to laugh every now and then watching The Office on Beth's ipod...and Elizabeth and Amy were going crazy over the bubbles that David bought on semi-accident. I sat. I sat under the tree, watching. Eventually I was left with Angela fiddling her phone and Kathleen still laughing and watching. It began to rain....hm..rain. 'If you guys wanna go inside thats fine' is what I was thinking..I wanted to keep sitting..watching as God filled the empty space in the air with drops of water. I layed back looking up at the sky through the branches and leaves. Watching as the rain drops tapped my face making me squint. I'd never experienced that before..I honestly couldnt help myself from smiling. It was really neat seeing rain from that view. So Here We Are - Bloc Party. Playing on my phone..the only song I've got since I want to wait untill I get the USB cord for it to just transfer songs instead of having to buy songs I've already got.

I love the rain.







w o n ' t y o u s i t w i t h m e ?

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Actually,

This is where I am.
This is what I am.

...

This doesnt seem to be in that spot..

Dang.

I look here and it doesn't seem to have that..

Why is that?

That's so different. Let's work.

No good..

Shoot.

.

But wait. Stop for a second..


Actually,

This is where I am.
This is what I am.






Let's work from there.