Deep Sea Diving.

So,

Had another 'Transformation Mililani' meeting today.

The question was asked, "So what books have you been reading lately?"

A few people shared about what book they've recently read or have been reading and talked about the different points of the book and things they learned from it and how they've seen things differently..

I almost had the mind to let them know that I was reading a book called Finally Alive by John Piper. My first thoughts were, "What if someone's given them weird ideas about John Piper? I don't want to look like one of those hard core, 'you're wrong about everything', judgmental kind of guys", especially since I didn't say very much in general. But that's beyond the point. I tried to shake that worry off. (By the time I decided on whether I would say something about it or not, things kind of just moved on so it didn't matter in the end)

What that made me think about..was that when I take in information and stuff, I tend to just agree. I read, feel enlightened, agree..and lots of times, that's where it ends. I tell people "If you don't get anything from the message than you might as well have not heard it" But can that be said to me too? What am I even doing? Listening to all of these podcasts and reading these books if I just expect it to subconsciously seep into my personality and understanding and not even try to recall the things I read.

Am I being hypocritical, nodding my head at things, shaking my head at things as if I really know. Maybe I'm just thinking on a general level, and in that sense, most of the things said don't apply to me and I'm right for nodding my head. But if I go deeper than that, a lot of what is said can be directed right at me. If I take it to the next level, sermons targeted at non-believers can probably eat at my own heart, putting me at fault.

But anyway..from now on, I should make sure I understand what I read in such a way that I will be able to recall the things that were pointed out, and relate it to my own life and I should seek God about it so that it won't just be me agreeing with the author but it will be God shaping me and molding me; correcting me, revealing things to me that will change me.

I mean, I'm not reading for fun.

I'm reading for my health.

:)