changingblogswhat?!
Not quite.
In an effort to stay productive (..a.k.a. keep myself from falling into the pit of laziness), I'm going to start a new blog. It's actually been in existance for quite some time now, idk how long hah. But I have yet to post in it.
It's called "As I Come Across" and it's purpose will be to share things that, as the name suggests, I come across through my travels around the internet. It'll be things like inspiring videos, crazy technology updates, incredible musicians and other things like that. Stuff that I enjoy or get a kick out of and would like to share with other people so they can get some kicks in there as well.
The reason I thought to do this such a long time ago was because my "links" part of my facebook profile was gaining pages and whenever I look back at things I posted, I think that it would be nice to have a full like.....a complete presentation of whatever it was.
So yeah anyway. I'm going to do that.
Soon.
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Waiting
Like a vase without it's love to store inside.
A vase with a gaping, empty hole in it's core.
It is painfully easy to feel the wind sweeping around the inner walls of it's body.
It is constantly reminded that no one is home.
Empty?
This taunting wind needs to stop.
A vase with a gaping, empty hole in it's core.
It is painfully easy to feel the wind sweeping around the inner walls of it's body.
It is constantly reminded that no one is home.
Empty?
This taunting wind needs to stop.
Reason to Cry.
A reason to cry.
A load of entangled clothes piled on top of your self, crowding your movement, keeping you from progressing forward; intruding your vision, making it hard to see the line that you've been following all this time.
A small bell, ringing faintly in the distance in a consistent, slowly paced rhythm. Every time it sounds you flinch because the note hits at an unexpected sensitive point in your emotions.
How should one take on such a challenge..
Weight. Pressure. Vulnerability. Trust. Hope. Security.
Sleep?
(Original Date: Thur 1/14 3:11AM)
Sunday, November 8, 2009
time realignment
It's strange how I sometimes get into these moods where I just feel like doing everything I should be doing; where I feel like I'm just in my right mind.
It's even more strange that this always seems to happen an hour after I wish I was already sleeping....
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It's even more strange that this always seems to happen an hour after I wish I was already sleeping....
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Thursday, October 1, 2009
z0MG NEWPOST!1!1!11!! • I know
Hmm..
I wonder why it is that whenever I have a bunch of time to do stuff, I seem to be the most unmotivated and uninspired. But as SOON as a bunch of unwanted tasks get thrown in front of me, I seem to want to do EVERYTHING and am really bummed that I can't create and do as I would like to.
I've come to the conclusion that (1) That's just the way it is. (2) That sucks. BUT (3) Instead of sitting here trying to somehow make myself inspired+motivated (I think you need both), when the load of unwanted business abruptly knocks on my window, I'm going to just deal with it as I should, right away and productively so that I can get to those things that I want to do.
Maybe business inspires me. It seems like such a curse..but maybe God put this in me to get me to the point of 100% productiveness. Maybe I'll become a master at this and in the future I'll be like one of those guys that people look at and say, "how the heck do you do so much all the time?!?! You're crazzzy." And then the other guy will be like, "You're a jerk." and I'll be like, "I know."
Haha.
no.
So yeah. Maybe it's a good thing. Maybe I should find something aside from what I THINK I should be doing with my free/chill time and do that and when the junk comes rollin in I'll be the one getting the high scores :)
Random List of Albums That Amaze Me:
Advantage Lucy - Echo Park
Bombay Bicycle Club - I Had The Blues But I Shook Them Off [at least the first half]
Bloc Party - Silent Alarm
CONDOR44 - Goodbye 44th Music
These are the albums that make me say, "Dude, this is IT o m g" and make me want to explode with goodness.
So yeah, anyway.
This post was supposed to be like, one sentence long.
I wonder why it is that whenever I have a bunch of time to do stuff, I seem to be the most unmotivated and uninspired. But as SOON as a bunch of unwanted tasks get thrown in front of me, I seem to want to do EVERYTHING and am really bummed that I can't create and do as I would like to.
I've come to the conclusion that (1) That's just the way it is. (2) That sucks. BUT (3) Instead of sitting here trying to somehow make myself inspired+motivated (I think you need both), when the load of unwanted business abruptly knocks on my window, I'm going to just deal with it as I should, right away and productively so that I can get to those things that I want to do.
Maybe business inspires me. It seems like such a curse..but maybe God put this in me to get me to the point of 100% productiveness. Maybe I'll become a master at this and in the future I'll be like one of those guys that people look at and say, "how the heck do you do so much all the time?!?! You're crazzzy." And then the other guy will be like, "You're a jerk." and I'll be like, "I know."
Haha.
no.
So yeah. Maybe it's a good thing. Maybe I should find something aside from what I THINK I should be doing with my free/chill time and do that and when the junk comes rollin in I'll be the one getting the high scores :)
Random List of Albums That Amaze Me:
Advantage Lucy - Echo Park
Bombay Bicycle Club - I Had The Blues But I Shook Them Off [at least the first half]
Bloc Party - Silent Alarm
CONDOR44 - Goodbye 44th Music
These are the albums that make me say, "Dude, this is IT o m g" and make me want to explode with goodness.
So yeah, anyway.
This post was supposed to be like, one sentence long.
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Deep Sea Diving.
So,
Had another 'Transformation Mililani' meeting today.
The question was asked, "So what books have you been reading lately?"
A few people shared about what book they've recently read or have been reading and talked about the different points of the book and things they learned from it and how they've seen things differently..
I almost had the mind to let them know that I was reading a book called Finally Alive by John Piper. My first thoughts were, "What if someone's given them weird ideas about John Piper? I don't want to look like one of those hard core, 'you're wrong about everything', judgmental kind of guys", especially since I didn't say very much in general. But that's beyond the point. I tried to shake that worry off. (By the time I decided on whether I would say something about it or not, things kind of just moved on so it didn't matter in the end)
What that made me think about..was that when I take in information and stuff, I tend to just agree. I read, feel enlightened, agree..and lots of times, that's where it ends. I tell people "If you don't get anything from the message than you might as well have not heard it" But can that be said to me too? What am I even doing? Listening to all of these podcasts and reading these books if I just expect it to subconsciously seep into my personality and understanding and not even try to recall the things I read.
Am I being hypocritical, nodding my head at things, shaking my head at things as if I really know. Maybe I'm just thinking on a general level, and in that sense, most of the things said don't apply to me and I'm right for nodding my head. But if I go deeper than that, a lot of what is said can be directed right at me. If I take it to the next level, sermons targeted at non-believers can probably eat at my own heart, putting me at fault.
But anyway..from now on, I should make sure I understand what I read in such a way that I will be able to recall the things that were pointed out, and relate it to my own life and I should seek God about it so that it won't just be me agreeing with the author but it will be God shaping me and molding me; correcting me, revealing things to me that will change me.
I mean, I'm not reading for fun.
I'm reading for my health.
:)
Had another 'Transformation Mililani' meeting today.
The question was asked, "So what books have you been reading lately?"
A few people shared about what book they've recently read or have been reading and talked about the different points of the book and things they learned from it and how they've seen things differently..
I almost had the mind to let them know that I was reading a book called Finally Alive by John Piper. My first thoughts were, "What if someone's given them weird ideas about John Piper? I don't want to look like one of those hard core, 'you're wrong about everything', judgmental kind of guys", especially since I didn't say very much in general. But that's beyond the point. I tried to shake that worry off. (By the time I decided on whether I would say something about it or not, things kind of just moved on so it didn't matter in the end)
What that made me think about..was that when I take in information and stuff, I tend to just agree. I read, feel enlightened, agree..and lots of times, that's where it ends. I tell people "If you don't get anything from the message than you might as well have not heard it" But can that be said to me too? What am I even doing? Listening to all of these podcasts and reading these books if I just expect it to subconsciously seep into my personality and understanding and not even try to recall the things I read.
Am I being hypocritical, nodding my head at things, shaking my head at things as if I really know. Maybe I'm just thinking on a general level, and in that sense, most of the things said don't apply to me and I'm right for nodding my head. But if I go deeper than that, a lot of what is said can be directed right at me. If I take it to the next level, sermons targeted at non-believers can probably eat at my own heart, putting me at fault.
But anyway..from now on, I should make sure I understand what I read in such a way that I will be able to recall the things that were pointed out, and relate it to my own life and I should seek God about it so that it won't just be me agreeing with the author but it will be God shaping me and molding me; correcting me, revealing things to me that will change me.
I mean, I'm not reading for fun.
I'm reading for my health.
:)
Monday, July 20, 2009
a feeling too familiar.
I wonder why I feel so restless. I feel like there is something I MUST do. Something inside of me must be met with its matching shape. Something in me must be realized. But I can't figure out what to do. I feel like doing everything, but nothing at all.
What a messy place to be.
I feel like there must be all the time in the world available but none at all.
It feels like I must go. I must get off my seat and run towards my life. Run towards the destination that will make me who I am; that will make me complete.
Yet, I don't know in which direction to make the first step.
None of the familiar places of rest settle my anxious mind.
Like a child, sitting in a room, in a place that is of no interest to him, waiting for the moment the doors will open so hey can dash out into the light, where he wants to be.
Where should I go?
What should I do?
Who should I see?
Is this what you call boredom...or is this something that travels beyond the surface?
What a messy place to be.
I feel like there must be all the time in the world available but none at all.
It feels like I must go. I must get off my seat and run towards my life. Run towards the destination that will make me who I am; that will make me complete.
Yet, I don't know in which direction to make the first step.
None of the familiar places of rest settle my anxious mind.
Like a child, sitting in a room, in a place that is of no interest to him, waiting for the moment the doors will open so hey can dash out into the light, where he wants to be.
Where should I go?
What should I do?
Who should I see?
Is this what you call boredom...or is this something that travels beyond the surface?
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