Friday, May 8, 2009

たくさん欲しい

I come again without a topic in mind. I've come simply to write.

What kind of life am I living?

Am I living?

What does it mean to live?

My desire is to do the work of God. I want God to move me to spread light around the dark areas of this canvas. All of the areas that I am able to reach.

But I'm such a stubborn guy. I want, but I won't move. I search..but when I find the door, I'm too scared of what's on the other side. I'm scared at the possibility of pulling a muscle when I go to pull the door open. Or maybe I might trip and fall over. Or what if this isn't the right door?

Hmm..

I'm such a lazy guy. I want to be............I want to be. Someone. Something. Somewhere. But I won't move. My eyes that see don't seem to be enough to move my body.

What needs to happen?

I wonder.

I want to become.


Lord, may I be made into that one?

Would you move me? Change me?

I want to...

1 comment:

Unknown said...

Zyme,

From being a part of the conversation on Wednesday nights during the meeting, the things that you're mulling over and thinking about: I believe that you are forming more and more your "person;" becoming. Kazunari.

I do think that more of that will unfold as your "ABIDITION" in God is maintained and consistent along with the outpouring of your love through thoughtful actions, serving others, praying with people, listening and being proactive in all of those things.

Be the first to move, to help.

You are transforming into this, Zyme. I can see it.