Christian?

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I come again without a topic in mind. I've come simply to write.

What kind of life am I living?

Am I living?

What does it mean to live?

My desire is to do the work of God. I want God to move me to spread light around the dark areas of this canvas. All of the areas that I am able to reach.

But I'm such a stubborn guy. I want, but I won't move. I search..but when I find the door, I'm too scared of what's on the other side. I'm scared at the possibility of pulling a muscle when I go to pull the door open. Or maybe I might trip and fall over. Or what if this isn't the right door?

Hmm..

I'm such a lazy guy. I want to be............I want to be. Someone. Something. Somewhere. But I won't move. My eyes that see don't seem to be enough to move my body.

What needs to happen?

I wonder.

I want to become.


Lord, may I be made into that one?

Would you move me? Change me?

I want to...