hitori de?

by myself.

am I alone. is anyone there?

are you here?

yes.?

yes?.

well of course. but maybe.

i need someone.?

but. are you already here?

mou koko de kimasuka?

mou koko de imasuka?


Sometimes...most times actually, I find myself trying to find something..somebody to attach myself to. I need to find a place for myself. A heart holder. I'm eager to find a place for my heart. Is it here. Is it there. Is there it? But. Maybe I need to look somewhere else? I don't think I should have such an empty feeling spot in myself, even if what I'm looking for doesn't seem to be here. So then. Yeah, maybe I need to be looking in another direction. But..for some reason...something is keeping me from looking there. Am I scared? Am I uncertain? Faith? Is that the word I'm looking for?

I need to stop silently throwing myself at people. Throwing pieces of my heart into things I don't know anything about. Investing in false hopes. Where is my heart? Where am I? Where do I belong? What am I doing?

Where am I?

102408 5:08

So..I'm eating beef jerky..

And my tooth..

It kind of hurts...

kind of..


But then..it kind of feels good.......

...

o_O..